I'm starting to feel very overwhelmed with all that's about to happen.  As a whole we're looking at a minimum of 3 months in casts.  Truth be told, I've been overwhelmed since the moment our surgeon mentioned he needed the surgery but it's just starting to hit me now everything that needs doing before hand or things that we'll need to plan for.  Things like will his daycare be able to accommodate him in his casts or will we loose our spot.  How mobile will he be in these casts, or rather how immobile will he be?  Will he need a wheelchair and how do we go about getting one?  how long will it take him to be able to walk again after all the casting is over and done with?  Will he relapse and need surgery again?  All these things are going through my head and many more.

I know that no matter how much I worry things will work themselves out somehow but I can't help but feel like I'm freaking out! I will be honest and admit that I am having "why him, why me, why us?" thoughts.  I mean come on, why is it that such innocent little kids go through things like this?  They've done nothing wrong.  They haven't even had the chance to screw up their lives or do harm to anyone to deserve to do through pain like this.  And I'm not only referring to clubfeet kids but any child that is sick or hurt in any way.  Makes no sense to me.  But at least clubfeet is curable and manageable.  We very are lucky in that sense.  Things could always be worse, much worse.  Ok well that was my negativity for the day.  I try to stay positive but there are moments, like now, where I can't help but feel a little helpless.  What can I say, I'm only human.

But in the meantime we have started his swimming lessons and they will run up until he is casted.  In fact we will miss the last class because it falls on the weekend after his casting.  But so far he likes it.  He was a little afraid and didn't like being dunked under water or jumping in to the water from the ledge, even with mommy ready to catch him.  But at least we're out having fun.  We've also been skating twice so far and I've got to say that he probably won't be a pro hockey player this year but next season, watch out!  No but really his right foot which is considerably worse off if making it quite impossible for him to really skate.  But he loves it anyways!  What a trooper he is!

Bad Ass!