One month until Casting day

February 1st,  This means that there is only 29 more days before we embark on this incredibly difficult/amazing journey.  I say amazing because although it may be absolutely terrifying to me I know that this is an amazing opportunity for us.  We are lucky to live in Canada and to have an amazing health care system and that this is being taken care of.  My father lived in Ethiopia for 10 years and he told me about beggars he would see in the streets with leprosy or clubfeet that went untouched.  They could not walk and some had skateboard type things to wheel themselves around.  Out-casted.  I can't even imagine their lives.  Anyways, I realize that we are blessed because things can always be worse.

I have a feeling that Fionn is starting to feel my anxiety.  He's been out of sorts lately and he's acting out.  He's becoming angry and its not like him.  My family has also noticed this change.  What happened to my happy-go-lucky, not a care in the world little boy?  He shouldn't have to feel these things.  He's only 3.  I am doing my best to contain my worry and show him my strength.  But I'm only human.  Lately with his acting out and not wanting to go to bed, I find myself very frustrated and snappy.  He had to throw out his soother last week too because he finally saw the dentist for the first time and he said time to get rid of it before it starts to do permanent damage.  I was really impressed because I told him the dentist said no more soother and to put it in the garbage and he did!  Then we had a terrible week in terms of going to bed.  Although he is not aloud a soother at daycare and I know for a fact that he sleeps just fine without one so there should have been no problem here, but that would have been too easy.  He's getting better though.  I hope I didn't just jinx myself there.

I'm doing my best to get our apartment organized and uncluttered for when he's in casts.  I don't need stuff getting in the way.  And luck would have it that I got sick.  I had a cold last week, which is taking its sweet time to fully leave my system and lets just say I've got other sorts of viruses flying around.  It's not pleasant.  I just hope Fionn stays healthy.

So now we continue Fionn's swimming lessons for the next few weeks and get in as much activity as possible before March 1st.